Sometimes I wonder what makes some people more enthusiastic than others about certain things. Enthusiasm is a very different thing from passion and I would not like to talk about the things one is passionate about! Is it an urge to get something done which drives the first category of people? Or is it because of some incentive? Or is it because of some obligation imposed by some other person? This question has always puzzled me. I admit, I belong to the second category of people. I am almost always unenthusiastic about anything. I certainly don't like to do things which I am not interested in...
As a child, I'd always hated studies! Except for mathematics, I don't remember having opened any book, except on the eve of the exam day. And when forcefully made to study, under the obligation of passing the exam, I would try to read a few pages, but would all asleep within no time! If not asleep, then the mind would wander around to some far away place. Luckily, my academic record was not so poor, and I managed to successfully carry this attitude through, although, with a steady decrease in performance. Having said this, I've observed other people, who though not interested in a particular subject, have still successfully managed to study it. How they managed to motivate themselves is still a mystery to me. Ofcourse, competition is one factor which has the potential to motivate people. I have actually seen myself self motivated during competition. But as soon as I entered college, the feeling of competition was lost. I've never found a way to regain the feeling of competition in any field. Can it be because I made some wrong choice somewhere? Or is it something to do with work life? Or something to do with social life? Or is it a combination of the above? Or is it because of some other unknown reason? These are some questions definitely worth pondering on...
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
Where am I heading?
Well, its been almost two weeks in Chennai now! Can't remember of having done something significant other than work. Its been a boring and tiring stay so far with nothing other than work, even on weekends. Thought I would meet some friends while in Chennai. I still remember the good old days spent with them. But all plans washed out! Next week should hopefully be a much better one. Well, time to doze off now! Have to wake up early tomorrow and hurry towards office :(
Monday, March 17, 2008
A memorable bus trip!
Its 5 pm on a friday evening! I pack my laptop, take out my bike and rush to my flat in Bangalore! Have a bus to Goa at 6:30pm. After a tiring week at office, it feels really good to go home! Home sweet home! The place where I can always look to when I find lost in this hostile world!!! After a 5 minutes ride, I start packing my bags. I stuff the whole lot of unwashed clothes in my bag. Fill another one with other essential things, and hurriedly leave the flat! Luckily, find an auto-rickshaw just below my flat. "120 Rs", says the auto-wallah. Having little time to argue, I just jump into the auto. "I'll not give you a penny more than the fare shown by the meter", I say stubbornly. "Kya saab, petrol badh gaya hai! Chai ka daam bhi badh gaya hai! Give me 20Rs more than the meter fare". I agree to give him 10Rs more than the fare...
I reach the bus stop at 6:15pm. I've learnt my lessons the hard way as far as travelling is concerned. I make it a point to reach the bus stop/airport well in advance. I head straight to my window seat, and make myself comfortable. The dude sitting next to me was quite friendly! He was basically a tourist from the UK, who was on a short trip to India. Wait a minute! Who is the girl in the seat just before me? To my utter surprise, she is a good friend! A friend on whom I had a secret crush (And I still have)! And who is the monster sitting next to her? She looked to be in real discomfort with the seemingly ungentlemanly person! I ask the man if he would mind swapping places with me! "This is my seat. I don't like seating behind." Then I request the dude sitting next to me to swap places with my friend. Understanding the situation, the gentleman quickly agreed. So I offer the window seat to my friend. And there we start talking endless stories. But alas, just like Einstein mentions, "Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute." This certainly seemed true. The bus came to a halt. Time for dinner. So we head to the hotel for a quick dinner. I decide to tell her about my feelings towards her. Its now or never! So post dinner, I just think about how to bring out the topic! And suddenly, she asks me, "Didn't u find any chick here?". I just say! "Not yet". "Didn't you have a crush on someone?" She continued. Now is the time I thought. "Had a couple of crushes. In fact I had a crush on you". I just didn't know what to expect. But the friendly person that she is, she just smiles. "When?" "Since college!!!". Not knowing whether to proceed or not, I just keep quite for a minute or so! Then I ask her about her crushes! This should make the discussion a bit easier I thought! "A few crushes here and there. But never beyond a few days!!". Finally, gathering up some courage, I say, "I still have a crush on you! Do you like me?" There is silence now! I don't know whether it was the right time to tell her. I take my eyes off her! And just start staring at the back of the seat before me. This can certainly be thought of as the most boring way to propose to any girl! Then suddenly she says! "Why did you take so long to say that?". And she just rests her head on my shoulder. And all of a sudden, I was flying! From where did this come? Did I actually propose to her? I could never muster enough courage in the past two years! I always feared that I might lose a good friend. This is proving to be a wonderful day! Looks like the stars are pleased with me for some unknown reason! Or maybe there was a mistake! As I turned to look at her again, she is already fast asleep, resting happily on my shoulder. And I try my best not to move! However, its really difficult to win against sleep. Especially when you don't want to sleep! And before I could realize, I fell asleep...
"Wake up dude", I hear a sound! Its Shivram, getting ready for office! "Its already 10 am. Boss will start shouting!" I wake up steadily, realizing its a monday morning! Friday evening is still another 5 days away! Time for office!!! Same old routine. I lazily ready myself before heading to office!!!
I reach the bus stop at 6:15pm. I've learnt my lessons the hard way as far as travelling is concerned. I make it a point to reach the bus stop/airport well in advance. I head straight to my window seat, and make myself comfortable. The dude sitting next to me was quite friendly! He was basically a tourist from the UK, who was on a short trip to India. Wait a minute! Who is the girl in the seat just before me? To my utter surprise, she is a good friend! A friend on whom I had a secret crush (And I still have)! And who is the monster sitting next to her? She looked to be in real discomfort with the seemingly ungentlemanly person! I ask the man if he would mind swapping places with me! "This is my seat. I don't like seating behind." Then I request the dude sitting next to me to swap places with my friend. Understanding the situation, the gentleman quickly agreed. So I offer the window seat to my friend. And there we start talking endless stories. But alas, just like Einstein mentions, "Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute." This certainly seemed true. The bus came to a halt. Time for dinner. So we head to the hotel for a quick dinner. I decide to tell her about my feelings towards her. Its now or never! So post dinner, I just think about how to bring out the topic! And suddenly, she asks me, "Didn't u find any chick here?". I just say! "Not yet". "Didn't you have a crush on someone?" She continued. Now is the time I thought. "Had a couple of crushes. In fact I had a crush on you". I just didn't know what to expect. But the friendly person that she is, she just smiles. "When?" "Since college!!!". Not knowing whether to proceed or not, I just keep quite for a minute or so! Then I ask her about her crushes! This should make the discussion a bit easier I thought! "A few crushes here and there. But never beyond a few days!!". Finally, gathering up some courage, I say, "I still have a crush on you! Do you like me?" There is silence now! I don't know whether it was the right time to tell her. I take my eyes off her! And just start staring at the back of the seat before me. This can certainly be thought of as the most boring way to propose to any girl! Then suddenly she says! "Why did you take so long to say that?". And she just rests her head on my shoulder. And all of a sudden, I was flying! From where did this come? Did I actually propose to her? I could never muster enough courage in the past two years! I always feared that I might lose a good friend. This is proving to be a wonderful day! Looks like the stars are pleased with me for some unknown reason! Or maybe there was a mistake! As I turned to look at her again, she is already fast asleep, resting happily on my shoulder. And I try my best not to move! However, its really difficult to win against sleep. Especially when you don't want to sleep! And before I could realize, I fell asleep...
"Wake up dude", I hear a sound! Its Shivram, getting ready for office! "Its already 10 am. Boss will start shouting!" I wake up steadily, realizing its a monday morning! Friday evening is still another 5 days away! Time for office!!! Same old routine. I lazily ready myself before heading to office!!!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Weekend??
Thank God its Friday, is a phrase used quite frequently, especially software professionals. After all the preoccupation with work for 5 days, its time to relax and enjoy! However, the way I spent this weekend makes me think otherwise!!! Whether its because of lack of planning or some other factor is hard to tell. Got up early morning on Saturday (Trust me, 8.am is really early), dropped my friend to the airport and suddenly I realize I'm running short of ideas to spend the weekend.
Well, this has never happened to me before. So I take out a book and start reading. Its been hardly 15 minutes of reading when I realize I have to hunt for a new place to stay! Supposed to vacate our current flat at the end of this month. So I take my bike out, and set out on a wild goose chase! I had no intentions of hunting for a new place, so no effort made in this respect. After loafing around on the Bangalore streets, I finally have lunch and come back to the flat. Sit idly for about an hour then head straight to office. Office? on a weekend? I was never a workaholic. Well, atleast I can surf the net. And thus, I spent the entire evening in office, doing nothing! Nothing at all!!! Came back at night, watched TV till midnight, but wasn't getting any sleep! Nor was in a mood to read. So just lie down, waiting for the sleep Gods to be pleased. Fortunately, they were helpful and responded soon. The next day I hoped should be better. I get up at 10.30 and decide to indulge in my favorite activity! Take my bike, go on a long ride, not knowing where to go! Just follow the road, take a random direction at a junction, take a tea break at a tea shop and move on!!! Finally after travelling around 80-100 km, I reach back to the flat and again go back to office :( in the evening, this time with a genuine intention to work (Not really). I just play some online games for about half an hour. Then I find a friend online on gtalk. A friend whom I always enjoy chatting with :) Well thats it! The evening ended
with chatting. After dinner, I head to office again, this time with Shivam and Roshan, both of whom, currently loaded with work. And what do I do? Just give them company and chat again!!! And finally decide to write this! To remind me to plan things, to avoid boring times :) After all, boredom is a really nasty bug!!!
Well, this has never happened to me before. So I take out a book and start reading. Its been hardly 15 minutes of reading when I realize I have to hunt for a new place to stay! Supposed to vacate our current flat at the end of this month. So I take my bike out, and set out on a wild goose chase! I had no intentions of hunting for a new place, so no effort made in this respect. After loafing around on the Bangalore streets, I finally have lunch and come back to the flat. Sit idly for about an hour then head straight to office. Office? on a weekend? I was never a workaholic. Well, atleast I can surf the net. And thus, I spent the entire evening in office, doing nothing! Nothing at all!!! Came back at night, watched TV till midnight, but wasn't getting any sleep! Nor was in a mood to read. So just lie down, waiting for the sleep Gods to be pleased. Fortunately, they were helpful and responded soon. The next day I hoped should be better. I get up at 10.30 and decide to indulge in my favorite activity! Take my bike, go on a long ride, not knowing where to go! Just follow the road, take a random direction at a junction, take a tea break at a tea shop and move on!!! Finally after travelling around 80-100 km, I reach back to the flat and again go back to office :( in the evening, this time with a genuine intention to work (Not really). I just play some online games for about half an hour. Then I find a friend online on gtalk. A friend whom I always enjoy chatting with :) Well thats it! The evening ended
with chatting. After dinner, I head to office again, this time with Shivam and Roshan, both of whom, currently loaded with work. And what do I do? Just give them company and chat again!!! And finally decide to write this! To remind me to plan things, to avoid boring times :) After all, boredom is a really nasty bug!!!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Addiction to work or procrastination???
Well friends, its been a very long time since the last post! Obvious excuse is a lack of time! Although that's a blatant lie, I don't generally enjoy lying, so let me confess. Laziness has become an integral part of me and I'm finding it hard to part with it. Hey, wait a minute, what is this post supposed to be about? I couldn't think of a title which would justify the following, so I just stuck to one which would sound less harsh...
I've been in the office from 10am to 3am ie 17 hours today! Let me reflect on what I've done in those hours... Well, here is the work flow. Check my mails, go out for tea, check my mails (this time obviously no mails to reply to), start working for about an hour, spend some time in the restroom, go out for tea, browse the internet, work for another hour or so, have lunch (a late lunch), go out for tea, work for another half an hour, browse the internet, then work for another half an hour. Its dinner time by now. So I go out and have dinner. Then I don't feel sleepy, so come back to office, work for another half an hour (work is almost done, but not yet complete), browse the internet. Finally, at about 2am, I decide to finish whatever is left (hardly 1-2 min job). Then start the orkut business! Eventually, tired of orkut, I think of posting this piece of gibberish!!! If you have taken the trouble to read so far, then take some more to leave your comments, giving me and other like minded people some advice on how to rid oneself of this dangerous habit. I'll try my best not to repeat this thing. Bye for now.
I've been in the office from 10am to 3am ie 17 hours today! Let me reflect on what I've done in those hours... Well, here is the work flow. Check my mails, go out for tea, check my mails (this time obviously no mails to reply to), start working for about an hour, spend some time in the restroom, go out for tea, browse the internet, work for another hour or so, have lunch (a late lunch), go out for tea, work for another half an hour, browse the internet, then work for another half an hour. Its dinner time by now. So I go out and have dinner. Then I don't feel sleepy, so come back to office, work for another half an hour (work is almost done, but not yet complete), browse the internet. Finally, at about 2am, I decide to finish whatever is left (hardly 1-2 min job). Then start the orkut business! Eventually, tired of orkut, I think of posting this piece of gibberish!!! If you have taken the trouble to read so far, then take some more to leave your comments, giving me and other like minded people some advice on how to rid oneself of this dangerous habit. I'll try my best not to repeat this thing. Bye for now.
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